Two Weeks.....

Until this semester is over.  Someone please cue the chorous!  A year ago at this time I had a full breakdown, later referred to as a breakthrough :) So here is what is new this week:

• I am feeling more grateful than I ever have ever in my entire life.
• Last night I did my third step with my sponsor and a small group of women that she also sponsors, my new sober sisters.  We knelt in a circle, holding hands and recited the third step prayer together.  It was a joy.  Afterward there were hugs and a few tears.  It is something I will never forget, ever.
• Today I got a 100 on a quiz.  SO happy.  It really helped my grade, and I needed it!
• We have been mushroom hunting and it has felt absolutely wonderful to get out in the fresh air in the woods.  And, no they are not "magic" mushrooms, just morels, yummy stuff.  God has blessed us with an abundance this year.
• Quite by accident, I started taking my medication in the morning instead of at night and for the first time in about a year, I have been sleeping all through the night without waking up.  This has had a profound effect on my energy and concentration level that is astounding.  What a blessing!
• The first weekend after school is out I will be attending a womens 12 step retreat.  Yay!
• I let the meeting I started almost two years ago, go.  Too much on that topic to write about, but let's just say it coincided with my second step and I am feeling very free today, it is all good.
• For the first time in my sobriety, or life for that matter, I really feel as if I am "turning it over" and it feels great!

God is Working on Me

 But I am really not the mood today God.  Can I just go back to my old familiar insanity where I did not have to behave accordingly?  I realize most of the relationships I had were sick and  codependant lacking any sort of boundaries, but I knew what to do.  I had it handled. I was running that show just F-I-N-E! Now everyone is mad because I quit co-signing their bullshit, so here I sit all alone.  Well, I am really not alone, God is here.  All is as it should be.  Breathe. Thank you God, for working on me.