A New Beginning

The great thing about being alive and sober.  I can start my day, life, week, year, over any time.  I guess the sober part plays in because when I was drunk, I was not aware of any other options except to drink and wallow in my self pity.  A viscious cycle Ihave been stuck in for a while now, minus the alcohol. But the insane thinking was there. 


Then the dream last night.  I was in a restaurant with my entire family.  I drank and drank and drank.  Guess what?  Nothing changed!  No one changed.  Except me.....I became more insane.


I am very grateful:


God's Grace


I did not drink


My husband who has loved and supported me unconditionally through this.


Friends that listened and loved me while I wallowed.


To be able to cook dinner for my husbands our family tomorrow.


Kind and loving "kick in the butt" from a blogger friend, just what I needed.


.......and hopeful this is the tip of the iceberg of a lot of stuff I have been going through in the last few months, I feel different about a lot of things this morning, like I have come full circle.


I am ready to move on.