Really glad it is Friday. I have been cleaning since I got home from school. Well, except, I guess I am not cleaning now.
It has been an up and down week. Ireally am grateful to be sober today. Monday, the 24th was my six year anniversary. It has been one of the most low key anniversaries ever. There is no cake, no celebration, no dinner out. That is my own fault for not having a support group anymore. I found the picture of this beautiful cake on google. I think it is very pretty. I was taught that AA owes me nothing, I owe AA my life. The two meetings I have attended this week, I have anonymously taken cookies or cupcakes to thank the meeting for keeping the doors open so I could stay sober. I did get a six year coin at one of the meetings. I am once again "working" with a new sponsor. I say "working" because I really have not done anything yet. I guess I am on step one. In fact I do not know what I am doing period. I can't seem to shake this blah feeling I have towards my recovery and AA. I know that I need AA to stay sober. I just cant seem to figure out where I fit in anymore.
School has been going great. My grades are really good, I attribute that to having so much time to study at my work/study job at school. Last week I got my first pay check and it really felt good. Clinical is good too, I am feeling more confident every day that I am right where I am supposed to be as far as nursing is concerned. It is my passion and I love it. Physically I feel great too. The side effects from the flu shot have not been present for a week now, and I actually have some energy. Guess I will get back to that housework now. Have a great weekend everyone.

3 comments:
I just picked up my 10-year chip at a meeting this afternoon -- sobriety date is Oct 22 -- and I felt like saying it "out loud" somewhere on the Internet. Your blog popped up while I was googling around, and I liked what I read here. So congratulations to you and congratulations to me, and now I've said it out loud! I'm dying to post a picture of my chip on my blog but am reluctant. Not sure exactly why. I'm certainly not embarrassed to be an alcoholic, but it isn't something I share everywhere. I'll be back to check on you again.
Congratulations to you, dear girl. I, too, have gone through periods where I was blah about recovery. Ultimately I end up getting a recovery check upside the head, but until then, I just go with how I'm feeling.
So proud of you and your scholastic achievements. SO proud!
Patty, I have stepped away from Alanon for months at a time. I will read the literature at home, practice the steps, but I will get busy (or whatever) and not go for awhile. When I go back to my home group, no one ever asks where I have been. I'm just back. This is very comforting to me. I know the message will always be the same, no matter which meeting I go to.
You rock, Nursey Patty.
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