Friday Night Bullets

• Friday night and I am so tired.  Have not been to a meeting all week, have not talked to any alcoholics.  I don't know who I would call.  I have not called my sponsor since last Friday.  I have come to the conclusion that she is just way too busy for me.  I knew that when I asked her so it's not like it's a big revelation.

• I have been cranky and miserable all week.  I keep blaming it on my flu shot that I got Tuesday, LOL.  I have never had a shot hurt like this one does, and if one more person comes up and smacks me in the arm I will throw them down a flight of stairs....just sayin'.

• I asked my husband if I seem cranky this week and after a brief hesitation he said, "No more than you usually are."  To which I replied, "What the fuck does that mean?" Every time I read this I crack up laughing.

• My patient this week was a 46 year old woman who will die a slow, painful death as a direct result of what the disease of alcoholism has done to her vital organs.  She is my third medically diagnosed alcoholic in the last 6 months.  No one else in my nursing class of over 48 students has has a chronic, dying, alcoholic for a patient, I have had three.  God shows us what we need to see. 

• I am very grateful to be healthy, alive and sober today.