Where Do I Go From Here?

I feel like someone has put some kind of wammy on me.  The last couple of days I have been.......um...airheaded...to the max?  Total scatterbrain is more like it.  I took my cat to the vet on Monday for her last round of vaccinations etc. and when I got there and looked at their calendar, I realized that I was a week early.  I wish I could say that I have never done such a thing before, but I have.  So, they were gonna try and fit me in but it would have meant a 45 minute wait with a unhappy kitty in a crate, so I said, I'll just come back next week at 10, at my regular scheduled appointment.  They said you do not have an appointment next week, then I started to argue, I most certainly do!  I have a reminder card on my refrigerator!  Is the insanity starting to shine through for you yet?  Um, yeah, OK crazy cat lady, you are the one that is a week early for an appointment that does not exist. So the big fat juicy cherry on this entire incident is after this transgression I look up and this woman is standing there watching the entire thing, and that woman is none other than the HEAD, The Big Kahuna of the nursing program that I am enrolled in.  Thank God I was not rude!  But I was a total ding bat!  Thank God also that she was more interested in my kitty than anything else.

Fast forward to yesterday...about 24 hours later.  I very discreetly ( I thought)  changed my lab schedule from Wednesday to Tuesday over a month ago on line before any tuition had been paid.  In lecture we were informed that only those who had a stamp of approval from the big kahuna were allowed to do that, funny, I would swear she was staring at me the entire time.  So after she left, I ran out into the hall after her.  Remember that scene in Christmas story where Ralfie grabs the side of the big slide and finally tells Santa what he really wants?  Yeah, that was me, and in turn, I got the old "You'll shoot your eye out kid," response.  (SIGH)  Actually she said that she would think it over and e-mail me. 

I wish I could tell you that was the only incident like this in the last two days, but it is not.  Last night I did sit down and have myself a little cry over everything, and I felt better.  In the big scheme of things, I feel as if God is getting me ready for something....again.  You know, the old growing pains kicking in.  I have been setting many, many boundaries, and that always seems to get me a little down.  No one likes to have their friends pissed off at them, but I guess if they are pissed because you are no longer allowing them to walk all over you, what kind of friends are they?  They are friends that I can love for who they are.....at a distance and on my terms.

So today I am going to do something for myself.  I am going to eat a healthy lunch.  I am going to go swimming and do something good for my body.  I am going to come home and take my doggy for a walk.  I will eat a nice healthy dinner and then, I will go to a meeting at a friends house with a bunch of really cool ladies.  I will ask God to take over, because I think I have been in the drivers seat and that is why I am so off the beam.  Some meditation and prayer is definitely in order. And although I have written that last, I will do that first.

I Love blogging.  I love just being able to allow myself to let it all out here and talk through and share my stuff.  I feel so much better than I did before I sat down to type!  Thanks so much for listening!