Taking Care of Myself

It has been a strange week and as I write, I am feeling a bit overwhelmed.  It is all self-inflicted of course.  I had so much stuff going on within a such a short timeline, when I stopped and thought about it all it was like WTH?  What was I thinking?  I was in over-load mode.  So today I decided to Stop, Drop, and Roll.  I cleared my calendar of all obligations except for one, that I really,really want to do.  Time to sit back and breath for a moment. SIGH..........ah that is better!


I think part of the reason for overload is trying to keep very busy as I no longer have a sponsor, at least not for the moment.  I was feeling a little uneasy about the entire thing, (did I do the right thing?)  Yeah  I did.  The writing on the wall became so much clearer this week, and now the message I am hearing is "Easy Does It."


Tuesday I go back to school and I still have alot of work to finish.  Oh, yes they gave us much homework to do before we go back.  Then yesterday they sent out an eight page study guide to be done when we return as well.  Thanks!!!!  That was the defining moment for me, there is not enough hours in a day to everything I had planned and get my work done.  I had to let a few people down, but it will be OK.  They will be able to attend the functions without me, I was merely the transportation because I knew how to get where we were going.  I will write them out directions and they all have cars to get there.


Although I am disappointed in not being able to go, a small part of me is relieved too.  It is time to get things back in balance again.  Since I have been off school it has been all meetings.  Now I have to pick my obligations wisely and do what is best for me.  So, onward and upward as they say, I am off now to hit the books and see if I can somehow figure out acid/fluid balance and arterial blood gas analysis.  Thanks for listening.  Patty

P.S. The other day I inadvertently deleted someone's comment, someone who has never been here before, called "wind dancer" maybe?  I am so sorry for the mistake, and for not remembering your name correctly, thankyou for your comment.
P.S.S. It is now the end of the day and I am just publishing this to my blog, but I think it is important to tell you that I had a chance to get outside for a brisk walk and then meditate today and it really helped alot!