Just For Today.........

Just for Today:

I will be grateful for all that I have, knowing it is all that I need.

I will turn to my Higher Power for guidance throughout my day

I will put healthy things into my body

I will do a good deed for someone and (try hard) to not get found out (I hope)

I will be kinder than necessary, because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle

(thanks Fireblossom)

I will have the honor and privilege of chairing a women's AA meeting on step five.

I will do something nice for myself!

P.S.

May 18th was my one year anniversary of being smoke and nicotine free!  What a blessing!  If I can quit, you can too!  One Day at a Time.

Sunday Morning

It is a beautiful, sunny, Sunday morning.  The promise of a laid back and peaceful day is on the horizon.  I guess you would not just assume this, but a laid-back day of rest around here is a rare thing.  The deck is as finished as it can be until the rest of the building materials we ordered arrive.  I do not know if I mentioned this or not but, I fell yet again on Wednesday.  I am a hurting unit and have decided that the deck Gods are not liking me much.  So I am sworn off to making lunch and lemonade.  I swear!  In twelve years of being a construction laborer, I have never injured myself like I have been injured on this home improvement project!  The good news is that the entire thing has been a testament to my strong bones! 

Step 12 has been very predominate in my life this month.  Not just with carry the message to another alcoholic, but also in a  "practicing these principles in all our affairs"  sort of way.  I have been around someone this entire week who used to "drive me to drink" so to speak.  This week, with the help of the steps and the A.A. program, I was able to accept this person, and see them as a loving child of God.  I also was able to set up boundaries, and so was my husband.  How cool is that?

I finished a pair of capri pants yesterday, and today I am going to start a halter dress.  I was a little ticked off when I followed the instructions and the measurements to the letter, and they were too snug.  So I had to seam rip everything and go from a 5/8" seam to a 1/4 " seam.  UGH!  But now they fit me perfectly.  Times have changed in the sewing world.  it always used to be that patterns ran huge!  Now the opposite is true.  SO, I will return to the store today and buy a new pattern so I can cut it out in the next size up.

It feels so great to NOT have a test to study for, lab report to write, or research paper to be working on.  I am savoring every moment of this time off from school.  I do have to take BLS (Basic Life Saving) class before July 29th.  I have an eye exam on Tuesday and I am hoping I can start wearing contacts.  If nothing else I will be getting new frames.  I have been wearing my old glasses for the last couple of months and I hate them!

I feel like I am rambling now, so I will close.  All in all I am very, very grateful to be alive and sober on this beautiful Sunday morning.  I slept very soundly, and awoke with very sore back and shoulders, but without a hangover...again.  It is a wonderful feeling.  I love being sober.  I love AA.  I am so grateful!

Have a great Sunday everybody!

I Love Pasta

Miracles

I love that I can see and appreciate miracles today.

When I see how loving and happy my husband is today, I thank God for the miracle that he is.

When I look at my life today and how blessed I am.

I thank God for the miracle that I am.

When I think about all of the horror, devastation, rejection, negativity, callousness, abandonment, sickness that we have both survived.........I thank God, that there is a God.

When I came to AA, I came to get sober, nothing more.

I was hopeless.

You gave me hope.

You taught me how to stay sober, one day at a time.

You showed me unconditional love.

You taught me how to receive love.

You taught me how to love others.

I found my God in AA.

You taught me we are all God's children.

And all I did was come to get sober.

Don't drink.

Seek God.

Clean house.

Work with others.

And I have been blessed beyond belief.

All because of a disease called alcoholism

and a solution called Alcoholics Anonymous

Rainy Tuesday

And I am still in my jammies.  School has been over for a week now and I am just getting settled in, or out(?)  This morning I got up bright and early, had two cups of coffee and went right back to bed.

Yesterday was kind of a rough one.  I took a tumble down some stairs and today I am sore.  I think I am going to make a big pot of  homemade spaghetti sauce and homemade pasta.  Tonight I am going to play around in my sewing room.  Clear away all of the microbiology notes, layout some fabric and make some summer tops and capri's.
Life is good even with the bumps and bruises today.

To Be Of Service

In addition to the Friday night meeting I started last summer, I regularly attend two other womens meetings.  On Monday night when I showed up to the first one, there was no one to chair and I was asked if I would do it.  Of course I said it would be an honor and a privilege.  Yesterday when I arrived at my Thursday morning woman's meeting, they were faced with the same situation and again I was asked if I would chair, again I said, an honor and a privilege.  They also needed a coffee person so guess who is making coffee too?  I do not tell you things to blow my own horn.  That is not the point of this blog post at all.  I do think that it is ironic that yesterday I was clicking my heels about not having to make coffee on Friday night for the first time in a long time, but still, not the point I am trying to get at either.  So, Patty dearest, what pray tell is the point, you ask?

The point is that.....service work is an honor and a privilege.  And when one commitment ends and two more fall into my lap, I truly believe that is God's way of telling me that I need to keep doing service work.  On more than one occasion, service work has kept me sane and sober. 

I do not take on commitments grudgingly, I do it with gratitude.  I am so grateful for the alcoholics who have kept the doors of AA open for me when I got here.  Service reminds me that this program does not owe me anything.  Not a cup of coffee,doughnuts or a soft chair to sit my ass in.  It does not owe me a coin or applause when by the grace of God I stay sober for any period of time. Alcoholics Anonymous owes me nothing.  But, I do AA my life.  So in return for my life, I show up a little early, put on a pot of coffee, and reach out my hand.  What a small price to pay.  Thank you AA.

Thursday Morning Gratitude

Good morning!  It is a beautiful sunny day!

I have so much to be grateful for:

A loving God in my life.

To be able to "rise and shine" without a hangover, or any regrets from the day before.

Hot coffee

Clean sheets

Quiet time to myself, (priceless)

Microbiology is over and I passed !

The summer off!

A loving husband

Friends.

The new girl I am working with, she is an absolute joy!

Chick meetings...........they rock!

It's Thursday and I am going to one of my fav chick meetings.

I am having a bunch girls over for a party Saturday night.

That I even know a bunch of really cool, sober girls to invite.

I do not have to make coffee this month on Friday night for the first time in 10 months!

The best mushroom harvest we have ever had.

Garden is growing, flowers are blooming, plans are being drawn up for a deck, I am over the moon!

This week when I found myself being judgmental, I kept my mouth shut and listened to the inner voice.  The voice said, "just love" so that's what I did, and lo and behold, everything worked out and I have no regrets.

Unconditional love

God's Grace, without which I would have nothing to be grateful for.