Slacker

I have been really slacking on my blog posts. I have been trying to come by and say hello to you guys when I can.
Founder's Day was awesome. Took my sponsee and we went to meetings and did service work and fellow-shipped and the whole nine yards. The service work was awesome. We manned the tent at the inter-group office where folks could sit and wait for the bus back to the campus. We met so many people, from so many places, it was great!
We watched the Big Meeting from one of the satellite centers on campus. It was fun and very intimate. A man sitting behind us from Ontario Canada had 62 years of sobriety!

I spent all morning Sunday working a paper for school. I love both of my classes, and my professors. I am still off work, and still enjoying it. Thank God my husband has a job.

Speaking of my marriage, a huge prayer has been answered for me. It came out of the blue, and is something I have been praying for since I first got sober, or maybe even before that. All those promises do come true, and they come true over and over again in layers and layers, in God's time. It seems like when I am able to let go absolutely, the miracle happens! It really takes practice though that's for sure! I am so grateful today. I feel like nothing could get me down! I sincerely feel happy, joyous and free!

After hearing all the speakers at Founders Day this weekend it became very clear to me exactly how very,very little I know! My ears and eyes are officially on high alert! I learned allot by just listening this weekend! WOW! Thank you God!

Well, this slacker is heading out to the pool now. I got my little pool set up last week and it is finally warmer than 68 out today, so I am going to float before I go to school tonight.

(PS-Sending out some extra special prayers to Pam and her Mom, Hope and Tyra)

Step Two

Last night we finished "We Agnostics" at Home Group. Have you ever noticed how people are inclined to change the title of that chapter? Like to "The Agnostics" or "You Agnostics?" Like most everything else in this program, it is "WE." We who drank our spirits, while at the same time making our own spirit inside sick.

Zane had a quote from meditations from God yesterday that really spoke to me. How God communicates through feelings, very seldom in words. The one from today was really good too, I am going to have get that book! I have had it happen to me and it is wonderful. It always seems to happen when I least expect it. Usually when I am plodding along, and just doing what I am supposed to be doing and then WHAM! I will see what God has been trying to show me, and my heart gets filled with love and joy! So, now I sound like one of "those people" that we used to smile at when they spoke of God making things possible in their life. Guess what? I don't care! I am so grateful for that second step!

If you are having a problem grasping this program, if you just can't seem to "get it." Take a look at that second step, and surrender. Try it for one day. Admit that there indeed is an inhuman power in this universe that is greater, and wiser than you are. And that power can restore you to sanity. I am proof of that. I was a hopeless alcoholic. Now, I am an alcoholic full of hope, who has been restored to sanity, my sickness of my soul has been recovered. I no longer have the need to turn to alcohol or drugs to solve or forget all my problems. God is taking care of me, and He wants to take care of you too, He has been waiting patiently for a long time for you. If you show just a little bit of willingness, the proof will appear in your life. He will show you, when you start to look, just how He can work in your life, if you let Him.
Thanks for listening

Grateful

It has been a busy, busy week, but I really have not had a whole to post. Busy sewing, going to class, working with sponsee, going to meetings. And this coming weekend is Founders Day. This year will be a different Founder's Day for me, I will be doing mostly service work. I hope I see some of you there this year. Last year I got to meet Lily, she is not blogging much anymore, but we still keep in touch. Hope I see you there Lily!
Last week had some sad news too. I met a guy several years ago through my husbands work, and then again in the rooms when I was about six months sober. He was one of those people who had to get it or else, wanted to get it, but lacked that last little fragment of willingness, or trust, or I guess he just was not done. Like so many he just kind of disappeared, and we missed him for a few weeks and then forgot about him. He had not established any contacts while he was here. Anyways, I found out the other night, that here, three years later he had recently died as direct result of alcoholism. It made me so sad and grateful at the same time. Grateful that I stayed, even though I really did not believe at first that I could have what you guys had. But I liked being around you. And I liked listening to you and hearing your stories about how you drank. You drank like me! I loved your honesty! I was in awe of it. So I stayed and I began to get hopeful, I began to see that I could have a different life. A clean,sober life. You guys did it, maybe I could too. I am so grateful that things turned out for me the way they did. I am so grateful for every day I that I have been given to live life to the fullest. I am so grateful today, to be grateful!
Mostly I am grateful to the people that have come here before me and stayed, and passed their message on to me. I am grateful to the 12 steps that have transformed my life by leading me to a God of my understanding. I am grateful to the ones who have come and gone to remind me that this is a one day at a time program. All I have is today, this one day. I do not know what tomorrow will bring, and I cannot depend on yesterday to keep me sober either. There but for the Grace of God go I at any given moment. I can never forget that I have a disease that tells me I do not have a disease. So I will stay sober today! I hope you do too!
(oh yeah, and smoke free for three weeks today, woo hoo.)
Photo taken at the Boonesborough Visitor Center in Kentucky