Tuesday Grateful Thoughts

Not much to blog about today. Yesterday I started my spring cleaning. Temps in the 30's and some sunshine got me motivated. Feels good to get rid of some clutter, very therapeutic.

Today I am grateful:

That the sun is shining

That even though that groundhog in PA. saw his shadow, there are only 45 more days until the first day of spring.

That I am learning how to "intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us."

For the talk with my sponsor last night that really set my mind at ease

That God's grace is what keeps me sober, but I still have to do the work

That I have a loving God in my life, guiding me, taking care of me, and doing for me what I cannot do for myself, more than I ever realized. Thank you God

To be a sober and recovering woman, thanks to AA and the 12 steps

To be going to a new meeting tonight with new friends that I have made.

Bills paid, food in the fridge, warm home, loving husband, furry lovable critters

That if you bring lavender inside and thaw it out, it still smells wonderful!(pic)

Blogger friends

This day today in which I intend to live through sober!

Monday Morning Gratitude

Today I am Grateful:

For a loving God in my life, guiding me in the direction I need to go in

That I am able to hear that voice most of the time despite the rhetoric that sometimes fills my head

For AA meetings and the steps

That I signed up to be intergroup rep this year, the meeting yesterday was awesome

That I am teachable, and can follow suggestions

For my sponsor, who is there for me in a kind, loving and honest way

That I have an agenda for the next couple of days

My new friend that God placed into my life

That not only am I excited about going to a meeting tomorrow night, I am meeting a new group of women, and we will study step three in "The Little Red" book before the meeting. Awesome!

That I only need to stay sober for this day today

My husband, doggy and kitty, my little family

The view out my kitchen window (see pic above)

A really fun time watching the game yesterday, good food, good company

That I am a sober, recovering woman

That I truly feel blessed to be alive and living!

Update

I Felt like I had to update on the post from the other day. I felt somewhat better yesterday, but had an urge to drink yesterday afternoon. I know I do not want to lose my sobriety, but these thoughts hit me like a ton of bricks. Yesterday it happened when I was driving down the road. It had passed within five minutes. I went to bed, bath and beyond and looked at drapes.(I know, good recovery stuff here, Patty, but that's what I did) Got my mind on something else. Then I called a friend and she answered her phone.

I sat in the parking lot talking to her for about half an hour. I felt much better afterward. I drove to the grocery store and my phone rang again, it was another friend calling to invite me to a Superbowl party today. We talked for another half an hour! She asked me questions, like, have I been doing my tenth step? I have been slacking in that area. She also related to me that she gets the same kind of feelings when she has a lot of time on her hands, as well as when she is going through a major "Growth spurt." I need to get out of me, and out of my head. It is a dangerous place to be sometimes!

So the next part gave me God bumps all over. Remember the lady I heard speak on Friday night? Well, I had been thinking about her, and looking forward to going to her home group on Tuesday and I thought, I don't think I even introduced myself to her. She has no idea what my name is. So I get home and there is a message on my machine, and it is from this lady. Turns out she works at the inter group, and was making reminder calls to inter group reps, to remind them of the monthly meeting on Sunday afternoon. I had forgotten that I had signed up to be my home group's inter group rep this year. I just filled out the paperwork with all my info on it Monday night!

I feel like I am moving in the right direction. Getting thrown some curve balls, but hey that's life! I am really looking forward to the meeting this afternoon. Getting some info on Founders Day, I am sure, and having an opportunity to do some service work.

The best part is I really feel more than ever today that everything is going to be OK. I don't know if anyone reading this has ever had happen to them what has been happening to me the past couple of weeks, with these drinking urges coming on out of nowhere. All the stuff that kept me busy, busy, busy in the past, allowed me to stuff this disease, like everything else, like my feelings. So now it is rearing it's ugly head at me in full force right out of nowhere. Daave left a comment the other day about the triangle. Unity, service, recovery. My triangle has been very lopsided. So, I am taking action. I am stepping up my meetings. Reaching out to the newcomer, doing service work, WORKING THE STEPS! I will call my sponsor today also and tell her everything. Gotta go now! Don't want to be late! Thanks for listening!