Let's See Now.......

I keep typing and deleting, typing and deleting. Not sure where to begin, or if I should even begin at all. I think some bullets are in order.

• I had a wonderful holiday this year filled with love and kindness!
• Last Monday I realized after much writing, praying and crying, that I am not as tough as I think I am, and furthermore, I do not have to be, or act like I am tough.  I am not tough!
• Last Monday, I laid myself off from my job.
  
• Monday night as I walked through the gate, I felt as if a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. 
• Not working enabled me to do so much for those less fortunate than I.
• I think going into detail about service work and specifically telling you what I did or do, somehow diminishes it.  I only mention it so that others may do the same and discover just how rewarding and heartfelt it is!
• Having said all that, I still reserve the right to bitch about making coffee every Friday. LOL!
• Speaking of which, there were five of us there on Christmas night and we had a beautiful candlelight meeting.
• I heard from my youngest brother and my oldest brother on Christmas day.  Youngest brother does not have any idea about any of the recent events between  our parents and myself.  We had a wonderful visit, and unbeknownst to him, I felt reassured by his words.  No one else called, and I called no one this year, not even my Dad.
  
• Not working enabled me to go to a meeting tonight that I would not ordinarily go to, and God put another alcoholic in my life to work the steps with.
• At this same meeting I saw an old sponsee of mine that moved out of state last summer and she smelled like alcohol.  She said she will call me tomorrow so we can go to a meeting.
  
• Tomorrow I am  going to join a gym.  Then I will buy a new Speedo one piece bathing suit, a yoga mat and new tennis shoes.
• Under no circumstances will I be posting pictures of myself in said bathing suit..                   {so relax}LOL
  
• Next year I start my diet, but I am really excited about exercising.
• Ever since I made the decision to go on a diet I have been eating like a pig
  
• Despite being out of a job, I feel so grateful for everything!  I really feel like all the promises have come true for me all at once in this past week.
• I am so grateful that I can recognize that
• I am so grateful that today I can see the cup as overflowing with love.
• I cannot wait to go out in the new snow with my doggy tomorrow
  
• Life is a blessing!

• Goodnight!

(photo credit: me)