What a Day

What a heck of a day today.  I really worked my tail off for one of the most sarcastic, put you down & try to make you feel like crap, a-holes,I have ever come across.  By the  the end of the day I was wore down to just about a nub.  I got in my truck  and by the time I got to the end of the driveway I was in complete meltdown mode.  I made it home and then I really let loose.  I was tired, filthy dirty with concrete splattered all over my face, and I wanted to give up and go to bed!  WAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!(OK this stuff is now officially and permanently in the dumpster)

I called my sponsor and she talked me down, God bless her!  We got to the root of a few things, I have some writing to do this weekend, no pressure, when ever I get time and want to feel better.  LOL. ;)  Anyway, the ONLY reason I am telling this tale of woe is because of the wonderful moment of clarity I had on the way home from school.  Oh yeah, I had to go to school tonight for three and a half freaking hours too.  I took a shower, dried my tears and put on some big girl pants and off I went.  And I am so glad I went.  The last couple of days at work I have been feeling like maybe my skills are diminishing, I mean how do skills like,  stacking concrete forms, carrying planks and running after stuff diminish? I don't know, but they do. Maybe just a little tired form staying up and studying?  Maybe.  Someone will ask me to do something , and I will say Huh?  Who me?   Sorry, I was thinking about my kidneys and the renal cortex and all the really cool stuff that goes on in there.  LOL  But I also have been having this incredible energy off and on too.  I mean energy like I have not had in years and years.  I attribute that to my not smoking for almost six months now!!
So I get to class and get two tests back.  One for a vessel test we had on the cadaver last week, and the other on the lymphatic system.  Respectively I got an 85 and an 82.  I was floored!  Especially on the second one!  Wow that test was a B-I-T-C-H!  THEN tonight in class almost every question I answeed was right.  That never ever ever happens.  My professor even said, "Thats right!  Excellent,Patty"  Everyone turned around and looked at me.(in utter disbelief)  It felt really good.

On the way home I had a talk with God.  I told Him I get it.  I can do this.  I can do this thing. If I keep applying myself the way I have been it will be much more pleasurable for me too.  Hey, I don't need to get straight A's.  I don't need to make the deans list (although I did over the summer, and another time before that :) God has been helping in the self dicipline area.  It's hard to study when you want to do fun stuff like shopping or go to home group which I missed this week, or just sew the day away.  So, anyway, I don't even know if this went in the direction that I had originally intended.  But I had a horrible day, and I wanted to give up, but I did not, and I had a great night at school, achey knees and all.  It really feels like the stuff is flowing in and staying.  This is something I prayed for.  I asked for help, I recieved it.  The a-hole guy?  Well no matter where you go, theres  gonna be those.  I am just feeling so grateful for the whole day and my whole life.
Thanks for listening.  Now its off to bed for this girl!  Oh yea, one more thing:
            THANK YOU VETRANS!!!