Seems like that is what I have been faced with in the rooms of AA lately. Geez, I don't mean to sound heartless and uncaring, but what difference does it make if you are bi-polar. Why does everyone seem to tell you that right off the bat anymore? Even my lab partner in school, "Oh, by the way, I am bi-polar." I think I just figured out that means that she does not have to do her share of the work. Is that what it means in AA too. "I am also bi-polar," so that means I get to sit here and whine while I get my meds readjusted from my last relapse, do absolutely nothing, and then go back out and drink again, oh and by the way could you come by and pick me up a little earlier next time so I can pick up a pack a cigarettes and a cup of free ice at the gas station.
Here's another good one, I heard this yesterday. I can't go to a meeting tonight, I need to go to the ER, I think I have syphilis, but after I find out what's going on I will be going to some because there are some people I am going to need to talk to.
I know there are many people in the rooms of AA with problems other than alcoholism (myself included), that do not feel the need to inflict everyone else, God bless them!
I am so grateful that when I got here I knew what my biggest problem was-alcohol, and this was the place to find the solution to THAT problem.
So could we please leave our mental, drug, marriage, divorce, childhood abuse and all the other things we loved to drink over problems outside the doors of the rooms of AA? Maybe if you work on the solution for the drink problem, more will be revealed, and you may find a way through your other issues, I did. You know what? It was freaking hard! It was way harder than whining and expecting everybody to kiss my ass. It was as hard as anything I have ever done. But after working the 12 steps, I came to believe that I was definitely worth it, and doing so would pave the way to making me of maximum usefulness to my Higher Power.
But what it all comes down to is that if you do not even have a drinking problem, then you do not belong here, I'm sorry. The ONLY requirement is a desire to stop drinking, and if you do not drink, and you do not suffer from this grave disease, then there is the door.
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At this point my sponsor would ask "so what is really going on with you?"
I can so relate to what you wrote. Some days I am just more tolerant than others.
You are preachin' to the choir with this one. Bipolar, depression, anxiety..did this all happen in the last 20 years? Because when I was in my 20's and 30's hardly anyone came in the ER on those meds. Now, a person who is not on ANY meds is the exception! No wonder we hear the bizarre stories..2/3 of people are on mind altering legal drugs. It's scary!
Please forgive me for laughing my ass off at that second paragraph.
"there are some people I am going to need to talk to."
Classic.
I think there is always something calming we can gain from a good rant.Especially when it's caused by anothers drinking..etc..I hope you keep sharing,Patty.
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Wow, this is great...you know I too find myself wearied at the whole crying about everything in life at meetings...but our sobriety...I am there to learn how to stay sober, that is why I am in AA and why I practice the steps. All of the answers are NOT there for me, but they give me the springboard to find them. When I have relationship issues, I see a therapist, not the rooms of AA.
I so get this and like you am not sure what the issue of Bi-Polar is, but it's not something I know what to do with...so I leave it at the door as I step outside to my life. My sober life.
thank you for this most elegant blog!
Gabi
I agree with everything you say... absolutely everything. The same stuff happens in the UK meetings. The reality is that these people and they are plenty, could not give a damn about you or recovery.
If only we could get some control!
;)
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