Thanks everyone for your support! Last night right after writing this I went over Hanks, and read this post. I have "The Best of Bill." I went to bed with that book and took it to work with me this morning. I read the essays on Love and Humility. THAT is what I needed to hear. THAT is what I was going through that I needed someone to share with me about. I was so glad that I had to work today because I wanted one more chance to deal with the guy who was getting under my skin all week. I spent a good ten minutes on my knees this AM. Begging God to please take it all, I promise I will let him have it. That guy did not bother me all day and he was just as nasty and condescending as ever if not more so. I kept praying to God for "humility just for today." (as Bill suggests in his essay) and I also prayed for this man that he would have the best of everything that there is in life. Was it all perfect? HELL NO!!! Was it wonderful? YES!!! I felt so close to God all day.
At lunch time my counselors office called they had a five thirty cancellation. I told the boss gotta leave a little early. When he came to relive me I got laid off! Not really bad news to me, in fact I am getting used to it I think. But I left and cancelled the appointment at the shrinks and now I am going to jump in the pool, eat supper and go to of all things, an Al-Anon meeting with my new sponsee! I am going to tell her about the Big Book thing. I did not read all of the forwards and I have not drank yet! BUT, I think it would be cool for us to go through the Big Book together. So I will ask her and see what she thinks. Thanks again to everyone especially you Hank! I am so glad you are still here! I am going to continue in "The Best of Bill" as well!
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Surrender, a favorite topic of mine. Glad that I read your post, got to you via Wait.What?, one of my favorite bloggers, so I knew you would be good!
Keep the Faith.
It's amazing how following the simple suggestions really works.
Imagine being able to find peace in the midst of resentment through the act of praying for the person causing the resentment. Seems odd, but it really does work.
Sorry you were laid off. May God guide you in the direction you need to go.
PG
(Shaking head in awe!) I'm reading: Gave all prospective anger and resentments over to God. Got laid off. Decided to go to Alanon meeting and spend time with sponsee.
(Still shaking head!) This is the way it is SUPPOSED to be. Wow!
I just went back to read your previous post. Wow! What a difference. And all on account of surrendering. Amazing and good for you!
This network is amazing, isin't it? Many days I will open my comments, and find someone who understands exactly what I mean.
I think the lay off was God's gift so you can concentrate on becoming the worlds best nurse.
PS Frankiecon is back.
Great place to be in - you sound good!
have a wonderful weekend.
Wonderful post! I am always amazed at how much easier the days are when I give them to GOD and do not take them back, no matter what! You received everything you NEEDED! Thanks for sharing your little miracles!
It's a wonderful gift that Bill W. had in his ability to share his hope and experience with us. How it reaches across the years and can still take hold of us and help us to change. Showing us the way to go.
As we all share, we touch each others lives. Travelling together.
With my latest sponsee, we went through the big book one paragraph at a time. We would read a paragraph, then both comment on what we just read. We had a dictionary to make sure we were understanding what we were reading.
Sad to say, that sponsee walked away from the program. I came away with a much deeper understanding of the big book. It was good for me and I plan on doing it again.
It is an altruistic program that ends up giving me so much once I start giving what I have away. I have need to remind myself of that every day.
Thanks for sharing your experience and hope with us.
Letting God have it is a lot more difficult than asking Him to take it!
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