I just have not been in the mood to blog, not sure why. For one I have been extremely busy, even though I am off work.....again. But I did treat myself to a little something today with my last big paycheck. This is what good girls, who get "A"'s in their summer classes, and don't smoke cigs for over 100 days get.

So tomorrow is back to school and I am looking forward to it. Anatomy and Physiology II. I read somewhere that having an expensive purse helps your GPA. LOL!! I peaked at the lab packet and as early and next week we will be dissecting an eyeball. COOL!

The new meeting is really growing. We have been averaging around 15-20 every week, more than I could have ever imagined. I have stopped walking on eggshells as far as the power thing is concerned, and realized that I do have to take more responsibility until there is an established home group that can make a commitment. Many that have made a commitment have been backing out due to football games and what have you. I will show up and make the coffee and ask people to chair on a meeting to meeting basis. We will have a homegroup meeting this week and I will say something to that effect. There will be no secretary or treasurer positions discussed until after the first of the year either. I have been praying about as well as seeking the advice of AA members who have done this before, and easy does it is the theme from all. So easy does it works for me. Some people the first week wanted to change the name, register in NY, buy coins and discuss food night. Food night? How about give the church some money night? By all means bring all the food you want! What an experience! I have to constantly remind myself that this is not my meeting, it is God's meeting. An if I am not reminding myself, someone else is, believe me!

Other news, not much really. I am working with a new sponsee. I myself have been doing a lot of work on steps 6-9. I have been meaning to share it here, but I just have not had time. Let's just say the eighth month is a good time to work step eight if you left any loose ends, your memory will likely get jogged. Every time I go to a meeting it is on step eight! Well, I got my memory jogged. I sure am a quick forgetter. I made two amends this month. It took a little time and some money and is still taking a lot of prayer. I expected nothing, but did receive much relief by having done them.

God is so good to me, for that I am eternally grateful!
Having said that.... I have a doctors appointment even though I have no insurance because I have no job, but I am going to go in there and unload on his ass! I need some fucking hormones or something! I got so PMS'd out this week I could have smoked and drank. Honest to God it sucks so bad. I am going to try a new take on the whole thing by being grateful for all of it. The cramps, bloating, irritability, cravings, migraines, insomnia, and crazy ass thoughts.
Good night everybody!