Sunday Morning

It is a beautiful,cool,sunny Sunday morning. I slept like rock. I am feeling especially grateful this morning for no particular reason.
Have you ever felt like you were not doing enough, or not grateful enough, and this small fear starts to creep in on you? And you start think on a very sub-conscious level almost, like you are starting to drift away from God a little, taking back your will? And then something happens, something very small. Casual words spoken to you by someone you care about. God shows you something very simple, yet beautiful in nature, and you feel like it was meant just for you to see at that moment. And you really feel like the sunlight of the Spirit is shining right down on you? You found your way back on the path. And then that feeling of security and love comes rushing back into your heart, and you know, you really, really know, that everything is going to be OK. I think with me, I just need to slow down and be quiet for a while. I get moving and doing, and doing, and doing, and I forget how to "just be." Today I am grateful for the entire cycle.

I am getting reading to go back to school on Monday. I think God is reminding me of the whole "doing" thing. I am still off work, but all my classes are at night. So I will be going to more day meetings, except for my home group, and I will just have to be a little late showing up for the next eight weeks. The important thing is that I have to keep balance. I cannot ever forget that God is "doing" for me what I cannot do for myself, and he can and will if He is sought.

So, I guess I am grateful for many particular reasons!

To have a loving God in my life

To be clean, sober and recovering

My loving husband

My sponsee, who never ceases to amaze and inspire me with her willingness, what a gift!

To be smoke free for 13 days now, one day at a time, sometimes one minute at a time!

Beautiful Sunday's like this!